I am nobody!!

After writing so much about hypocrisy with a pure heart, I realize that even I've been acting like a perfect asshole by actually practising hypocrisy, alomst daily.Friends are real great assets sometimes :-), I did a little bit of introspection I found "u rap about it, can't keep it real how could it be that the curtain is closing on me??" , yeah!! 'n' that made me quite sad, so I'm here not to blame nybody other than myself.

I confess I am a hypocrite. I've been practising that for almost 25 yrs now, for, the whole of my blood and flesh is made of that, but the whole fucking point is that [look, my ego pops up with an allbi] at least i have got the guts to accept that 'n' thats a promise to myself I make now - I'll accept it anywhere I feel like.

Allibi #2: This life has forced me to adapt to it / to imbime it, simple implementation of Darwin's Theory , gentlemen.Huh!!

I just dont want to be a rebellion at this.Its just that something in me "sometimes" asks me NOT to accept more of hypocrisy 'n' I write these kinda shits:-) , write here just to vent out , 'cuz 'm a coward 'n' as Mr. Shakespeare says - "I die many deaths", there are these times when i feel so low .... thanks Society!!! I hate all of u!!

My ego says:- I'm better , atleast ,I have a conscience which doesn't allow me to practise much of this pain.M better.... lot better than many confident asses I meet on a daily basis.

In the benefit of workaholics:-
If u cannot resist some immature crap plz don’t proceed u might b wastin ur time, Rest can join me.

Lemme just introduce myself to nybody reading (‘n’ possibly interested in ) this :-
So I am some X who has just come out 4m d college atmosphere , well on paper I hold a bachelors in CompSc , and (atleast , as of what I feel) , have lots of zeal for working something really tech , by the grace of God I’ve just started working for some really great industrial group ‘Y’ in my country.
Hope, all those who fall into my category (‘n’ I’m pretty sure tht there’ll be many )can very well understand my dreams, apprehensions, understandings from/of a “corporate” atmosphere…

With this as the background this is what I’m forced to accept today, as I sit in my cubicle for the first day ….
Incident #1: There is this lady ‘Z’ who comes right in the morning ‘n’ configures our systems for the so-called necessary softwares , creates my account … gives me the control of the box ‘n’ disappears

---------for 3 hours to come I have to sit doing absolutely nothing hoping that I’ll b allocated to some projects or some other work , everytime a prjct lead passes by I start feeling a little lucky… rest assured m still sitting writin this ---------

[for nybody whoz done a little bit of programming in C/C++ ‘n’ understands what “void” means will be able to substitute my day with tht meaning….probably nothing better could make me understand as to what type “void“ is ]
nyways… thinking ‘n’ writing crap is my habit.

Incident #2 : I see people(seniors) leaving their cubicles in a hurry ‘n’ take a guess for what ???…. I’ll tell ya .. coffee, personal calls, sometimes to get some configuration corrected in their outlook, (as prolly they are not able to get their personal mails ) , fillin their water bottles from wate-dispensers…whatever but they’re just so busy (for nothing)
You can make out right 4m the look tht they’re shit bothered about the company/products/work whatever…:-
Clock ticks 5:30 ‘n’ ppl hurriedly pack up all they can ‘n’ rush towards the company shuttle as if they’d been caged 4 so many hrs. J

Thoughts: Maybe if people inculcate a little more of something known as self-discipline then we develop Ips better ‘n’ at a faster rate. And they talk of economics in their free times!!!

Well , at these encounters I feel tht this corporate world is all about being how good a hypocrite you are … or lemme better rephrase it as “How better u learn perfect hypocrisy… the earlier u do the better u flair”. Have u ever observed ppl talking all around u ??? perfected at diplomacy!!!

Smoked a cig with a PL now … ‘n’ the only thing he was looking happy at was tht hez been successfully postponing his release date by quite some days now…J

But, I’ll really try to find out the answer to certain extraneous roots in these hypocrisy equations like – Why is Y! msngr, gmail, orkut ‘n’ pornography banned in the offices ??? Why so much of double/triple layered authentications ??? I mean , at times when u have absolutely no work to do , u do whatever u like right ??, so why not these ??? okay … as far as decency is into question then m sorry 4 d last one but why the hell are they so damn particular about the others…Every other person actually knows tht ppl access whatever they want thru proxies but still they have these little tricks of softwares (proxy settings) to add to hypocrisy.

I ‘ll try to learn all the hypocrisy required ‘n’ get back to this blog as soon as I get more mature…till then u can drop in criticisms abt my current thinking and help me mature faster.. thank you all in advance..

[And I very seriously apologize if I acted a little stupid OR overreacted OR if u feel tht u’ve wasted ur timeL]